Hearts and Rainbows

Having a real connection with someone is extraordinary. When you really connect with someone it doesn’t matter the circumstance, the distance, the situation, your life will change. The connection can be ignored, set aside or even walked away from but that doesn’t change anything. When you connect with someone, it’s a deep penetrating link that will not let go.  You will know it’s real when no matter how much times passes, the second you’re in their presence you are instantly swept back into the moment you left them. A real connection is undeniable.

I believe there are many people we will meet in our lifetime.

There are people who we love. Those people come into our lives and it’s a nice feeling but doesn’t cause waves and it leaves as fast as it arrived.

There are people who come into our lives that we settle for. Those people may be what you think you deserve and sadly they can knock you down to their level if you let them.

Then, there is the person you’re meant for. That person comes into your life and it feels like home. Your souls find familiarity in one another.

I have met each of these people. I have spent a lot of years seeking affection. I would momentarily obtain it but it was never satisfying. I gave bits and pieces of myself to people that never really earned it. I was hurt repeatedly but was okay with that because I thought I deserved it. I had a resentment buried down inside of me so deep it had tainted my being. I let myself believe his words. I was told I wasn’t good enough and I believed it. I had never looked in someone’s eyes and saw love.  I just kept living with mediocrity. I had pieces of completely different puzzles patched together that created a sad looking picture.

Then I met her.

Meeting her was an instant connection, a gravity that was impossible to fight. I realized in that moment every person I had encountered and every decision I had made led me to her. All the hurt and unhappiness seemed insignificant. My soul had finally found a home and I knew I was bound to her.  I knew I would always love her.

I love her because she is my best friend. I can laugh and be a complete dork with her and it feels so good.

I love her because she has seen me at my absolute worst and didn’t even think twice.

I love her because she is the first person I call or text when something good or bad happens in my life.

I love her because she puts effort into knowing who I am as a person. Not who she wants me to be.

I love her because no one has ever loved me like she loves me. No one has ever made me feel worthy of love like she does.

I love her because pouring my heart out to her is second nature. I have told her things I have never told anyone and she knows the deepest darkest parts of me. I have told her my hopes and dreams. I have told her my disappointments and the low points in my life and she holds me like she feels them too.

I love her because she speaks to me in a loving way. She doesn’t try to hurt me. When I cry, she is there to wipe my tears no matter the reason. When I am a mess she picks me up and when I am stuck in my head she is patient with me.

I love her she is never jealous or spiteful or hateful in any way. She loves me with an unselfish love that is wrapped up in trust and mutual respect.

I love her because she is the strongest woman I have ever met and I admire her more than she will ever know.

I love her because she has made my life better in more ways that I can put into words. She makes the ordinary extraordinary and I am lucky to be loved by her.

No matter where life takes us, I promise to treat her like every day is Valentine’s day because she deserves it. She deserves more than I could ever give her but I will spend my life showing her. I will spend my life making her smile. I will spend my life devoting myself to her and loving her with a deep and fierce love. I will never take our love for granted. A connection like we have is once in a lifetime, and I know that.